i wish..

As time passing by, I am getting older and older. Things are getting harder, problems are getting bigger, friends come and go. Sometimes im just being stutter looking at all things that are happening around right now. And sometimes i feel i can't stand this anymore and i wish that i was born in the other part of this world. I can't even do anything except for just praying that things might change to be in better way, to be in good terms.
How i wish things might be better,
I wish that i could change these days,
to be a better days
throw all the tears and hurts away
I wish i could look in the future
so that i could plan better things
I wish that i could stand still
even in the hardest part
and be a strong person
without hanker for people's help
I wish i have someone for me to rely on
so that he/she would be the one who is lending their shoulder for me to cry on
and would do the same thing even in the other moments
This journey is still far
as im still the only daughter in my family, the only child
i don't know whether i could still stand facing all these sort of things in life
when my parents are no longer beside me
Sometimes i feel that i wanted to go first
and sometimes i think i can't
It's hard for me
I wish that all my dreams will come true,
even there are zillion prayers that i pray
as i keep on praying day by day
But,
if one day i am really in a big bad moments, i wish that there is someone that could still sit beside me and say, things will change to be in better ways :)

feelings

Have you been thru part that people or someone you trust or even your bestfriends did things that might hurt your feelings? and for sure you guys did. and how does it feels? i bet it doesn't feels good at all. and sometimes im just hoping that i could turn 'em down or just shoot 'em up. or maybe sometimes i would just wanted to be deaf so that i wouldn't be able to hear all those nonsense. but for sure i don't want to be deaf. sometimes things might not be the same. things that we never expected to hear/do would unfortunately happens. people talk what they want eventhough they didn't know the truth. they don't even want to try and figure out the true things and keep on talking shits. i don't mind if some of 'em want to talk this and that about someone. maybe there's thing that they don't like. but could you please talk to that someone nicely. is it so hard? some words might hurt people's feelings. not to you, but maybe to them. try to understand people's feelings. try to get to know them deeper. don't just follow what your heart said. don't be selfish you fool!

*and to those that being this type of unable to understand human, try to change babee. it's good for you. and please please please don't be selfish. it is immensely annoying -___- pfft

btw thanks for reading ;)

CAMP ROCK

Well, sorry for the late update. I just came back from camp and facing thru exam -____- plus, Im waiting for the pictures to upload by puri. It tooks quite lotsa time because there are too many pictures.

So, here how it goes. On the 3rd to 5th July i went to unit beruniform camp in school. It was the first time i went to camp since i entered secondary school. How lame -___-' pfft. Well, the camp was immensely da boom! Arghhh i missed it already :( and i don't want to talk much, here are some photos,

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First day, 3rd July

Model wannabe part 1 HAHA

Model wannabe part 2

Model wannabe part 3

Model wannabe part 4

Model wannabe part 5

Model wannabe part 6

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Second day, 4th July

Model wannabe part 7 haha


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Last day, 5th July

Model wannabe part 8

Model wannabe part 9

I miss this :(

So, this camp was immensely awesome! It is not that i never been to camp before but due to long-time-never-go camp, i really really missed it. There're lotsa memories left which i never forget. And not forgetting, thanks to maula, our driver to petronas on 1.30 a.m. something haha. Thanks to kak shikin, kak myra, kak anis, luqman, mangga, feeqo, puri, sheikh, pejal and others too for being such a great gang ;)





Haih, i really really really gonna miss this camp :(

Friends letter

Old/best/new friends,


I just want to seek for your forgiveness for all my wrong-doings, my bad behaviour, my shit words and bla3. I know sometimes i did things that might hurt you guys. I am sorry..


Dear old friends,

I just want to say I am missing you guys so much. I don't know how to prove it after all some of you guys are lost in contact. I am trying how to find you guys back. I miss the all of you. I am hoping that one day we will meet each other back. But it's okay, walau jauh di mata, dekat di hati ecehh :D

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Dear best friends,

I am writing this to letting you guys know how much i love being with you guys. You guys are just special in your own way. Thanks for your kindness, thanks for being such a special to me, thanks for everything. The moment that we shared together, problems that we faced together, things that we did together, i don't know how to repay back all your kindness. I am so appreciate it eventhough sometimes i seems don't care at all. I am hoping that our friendships will last forever and ever. Sometimes i try to live without you guys and i can't, im weak. I don't know what would it be if you guys are not here by my side. Thanks for every single thing. Thanks for lending me a hand when im fall, thanks for lending me your shoulder for me to cry on, thanks for giving me supports when i feel bad, thanks for everything again. I love you guys so much :)

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Dear new friends,

I am happy to know you guys and like usual, i am hoping that our friendship will getting closer and be more good. And if you guys are still want to continue this relationship, go on. We can make it i guess. Whatever it is, thanks for being my friend :)


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*Psst, to those who is saying that im sombong or wtv shit it is, i am sorry. i am not that type. maybe sometimes i would be. but not all the time. maybe all the time, only to some of the people. not all. and to those that said i am no longer being their friends, not like before wtv thingy, i am sorry again. and i am trying to be the old me. i am trying to hold our relationships together. but i am sorry if i give a damn fuck like what you did to me like shit things (you know what i mean) so, that's all, thanks :)



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