Hello RAYA :)

As we keep counting days for puasa, now we are just in the end of puasa and hello RAYA :)


In the mean time, I still can't believe that puasa is already in the end -.-' i thought that it was just started. Well, face the facts ailin :D


Actually i am totally rushed and focused in counting days for PMR to be held. *sigh -.- I thought that i can celebrate raya this year with full of joy but i can't. Raya is raya, PMR is PMR. Eventhough PMR is just around the corner but I still don't full get ready to sit for PMR -.-' Thinking about future, about what going to happen next is just messing me up. I don't really ready to stand in the crowd alone. But that is life. We can't just hoping & keep relying on people's butt.


But in this year, I learnt lotsa things in my life. New things. About friendships, loves, single, couples, etc. I am proud of myself for being a bit adult and learn to survive without fully craving for people's helps. I am a bit grown up day by day with new kinda things everyday. Yes, go ailin! ;)


And i think that's all for now, I will be posting another blog soon. And thanks cause reading it ;)

P/s : For anybody who do know me, I would like to seek for your forgiveness towards all my wrong-doings all this while including I realised or I didn't realised at all. I am sorry. I am totally regret it. Especially for those whom I always hurt your feelings. I am so so sorry. I didn't meant to do those things to you. Well, people make mistakes right. And now, I already realised my mistakes and hoping that you guys will forgive me. Again, if ada TERkasar bahasa, TERsalah tutur kata, TERejek lebih ke, TERkutuk ke, padanlah muka *JOKE! haha :D TERtiru jawapan ke, TERpukul kuat ke, apa-apa yang TER lah, sorry again.

And lastly, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN :)

I Love You & Take Care <33

Lots of loves,
Ailin ;)

Convo with madu 'S'

[23:34] elinailin : ARU MATAAAAAAAAAAA!
[23:34] elinailin : :))
[23:35] nurulnabyila : aru dahi!!!!!!!!
[23:35] elinailin : ahahahaha poyo lah kau!
[23:35] elinailin : eeee nanti jadi madu doo
[23:35] elinailin : hahahahaha lebih baik dari 'tuut'
[23:35] elinailin : eh btw diet kita nk bagi gelaran apa?
[23:35] elinailin : haaa aru segala aru nak? HAHAHA
[23:35] nurulnabyila : tak nak la !
[23:35] nurulnabyila : tak pyh gelaran !
[23:35] nurulnabyila : tak pyh ckp psl dia ok?
[23:36] elinailin : oh ok ok
[23:36] elinailin : ha'ah kann buat sakit hati jee sakit babi haha
[23:36] nurulnabyila : haha
[23:36] nurulnabyila : tau pon kau !
[23:36] elinailin: eh b, nanti kita nk kawin dkt mana? garden? atas bukit? hahaha
[23:36] elinailin : tapi kalau dgn aru dahi kena dekat kuil :))
[23.36] nurulnabyila : tak nak
[23:36] nurulnabyila : nnti ade hantu mate terbeliak kt sne !@-)
[23:36] nurulnabyila : haah
[23:36] elinailin : AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
[23:36] elinailin : aru mata india jugak eh? eh tkpelah dia ada. dia boleh jadi spotlight dkt sana ahahaha
[23:37] nurulnabyila : haha
[23:37] nurulnabyila : kau bulan pose lahh !
[23:37] nurulnabyila : tak baik !
[23:37] elinailin: eleh kauuuuuuu tk baik konon
[23:37] nurulnabyila: aku rindu WAN lahhh :x
[23:37] elinailin: yg kau ejek aku pasal madu madu tadi apa? baik pulak?
[23:37] elinailin: WAN?
[23:37] elinailin: hoooooooo
[23:37] nurulnabyila: hehe
[23:37] elinailin: i lap WAN ahahaha
[23:38] elinailin: nabila, kau nk letak nama anak kau apa?
[23:38] elinailin: FAISAL YUSUF aku punya!
[23:39] elinailin:: ;P
[23:39] nurulnabyila: amek la
[23:39] nurulnabyila: aku dah ade nama laen lahh

[23:39] elinailin: apa? aru mata? AHAHAHA
[23:39] nurulnabyila: ape mslah kau ?
[23:39] nurulnabyila: nak sgt ke aru mata tuh ?
[23:39] nurulnabyila: amek la wehh
[23:40] nurulnabyila: aku tak hingin ponn
[23:40] nurulnabyila: @-)
[23:40] elinailin: haa tau pon! kau tu tk habes habes pasal MADU THE CLIMB -.-
[23:40] nurulnabyila: haha
[23:41] elinailin: aku tak sukeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :@)
[23:41] nurulnabyila: ahah
[23:41] elinailin: aku rela jadi madu kau doh
[23:41] elinailin: hahaha
[23:41] nurulnabyila: :@)
[23:42] nurulnabyila: haha
[23:42] nurulnabyila: aku yg tak rela dohh
[23:42] nurulnabyila: wan aku punya sorang lahh
[23:43] elinailin: eeeee aku tknk pn lah wan tuu
[23:43] elinailin: amik ahhhh
[23:43] elinailin: aku ada SPIDERMAN
[23:43] elinailin: :p
[23:43] elinailin: JOHOR pn aku punya :p
[23:43] elinailin: F2 lyna punyaaa :p
[23:44] nurulnabyila: ye lahh
[23:44] nurulnabyila: amek lahh
[23:44] nurulnabyila: aku punya WANNNNNNN
[23:44] nurulnabyila: :))
[23:44] elinailin: lohhhhh eeeeee perasan lah sial!
[23:44] elinailin: confident tu cakapppp
[23:44] elinailin: walawehhhhhhh
[23:44] elinailin: cehh nabila dh pndai dh skrg kannnn
[23:44] elinailin: org bagi makan mcm ni kau kannnn HAHAHA
[23:45] nurulnabyila: haha
[23:45] nurulnabyila: tade la
[23:45] nurulnabyila: aku berangan je lahh
[23:46] elinailin: elehhhhh kauuu hahaha
[23:46] elinailin: mlm ni berangan naik pelamin hahaha
[23:46] nurulnabyila: haha
[23:46] nurulnabyila: tadi en ,
[23:47] nurulnabyila: wan tu en , pndg aku mcm tau je aku ske dia ahah
[23:47] elinailin: elehhhhhhhhh nanti kalau dia tau menggelabah tetek kau hahaha
[23:48] nurulnabyila: haha
[23:48] nurulnabyila: tu lah
[23:48] nurulnabyila: aku tak mau la dia tau
[23:48] nurulnabyila: bia je la aku sorang je
[23:49] elinailin: elehhhh tgk tgk dia pn suke kau jugak ehh hooooooo :D
[23:53] elinailin: aiiii angau kt WAN pon agak agak ar biar aku chat sorg ennnnn
[23:54] nurulnabyila: hehe
[23:54] nurulnabyila: aku tak tua nak ckp ape
[23:54] elinailin: kau dh ngntok ckp je arrr haha
[23:56] nurulnabyila: tak de lah
[23:56] nurulnabyila: aku bosan nih
[23:56] elinailin: kau tk ngntok ke?
[23:57] nurulnabyila: belom lah
[23:57] nurulnabyila: jap lgi kot
[23:58] elinailin: weh k ar aku nk out. byeeeee ;)
[23:59] nurulnabyila: nye
[23:59] nurulnabyila: byee the climb !
[23:59] elinailin: babiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
[23:59] elinailin: :@):@):@):@):@):@):@)
[23:59] nurulnabyila: haha
[23:59] nurulnabyila: adek aku pon tau la babi mcm tu rupa dia !
[00:00] elinailin: aku tak kata pon adik kau tktau
[00:00] elinailin: aku nk tunjuk tulah rupa MONYET
[00:01] nurulnabyila: haha
[00:01] nurulnabyila: dia tau la monyet mcm mne !
[00:01] elinailin: eeee diam ah aku tk suke
[00:02] elinailin: kau dh madu dgn S dh arrrrr haha
[00:02] nurulnabyila: haha
[00:02] nurulnabyila: babiiii
[00:03] elinailin: haaaaa tau ponnnnnnn
[00:03] nurulnabyila: haha
[00:03] elinailin: (m) 'A' monyet tuh ahahahaha
[00:03] nurulnabyila: haha
[00:03] nurulnabyila: ye lah kau !
[00:04] elinailin: dah byeeeeee! madu S
[00:04] elinailin: :))
[00:05] nurulnabyila: B-)

Heh -.-

I don't want this year to end,
I don't want to leave this form 3,
I don't want to be separated with my friends,
I don't want to survive alone,
Although,
things might change,
but I want those memories remain the same.
Things that we shared,
laughters, thick & thin in life,
would be the most memorable part.
Eventhough we know that
we will be separated one day,
but still
hand in hand, heart to heart
we will never ever be apart.
Even day by day past,
but still we never forget about the past.


Memories will forever will become memories.
Let past be history, even zillion miles away we're being separated but still close to heart ;)



* I LOVE YOU, FRIENDS :)

Fasting Month

Yeah, school holidays start so do fasting month. it's been a while due to the last fasting month left us. And here it comes :)
Eventhough in the month of fasting, there is no rest. brain can't rest so do hands. Exam is just around the corner and still, i am not ready. I don't want this year to end. *sigh -.-

And yes, reducing my extra fats, here and there in this fasting month is just and advantage. Big thighs, big tummy, big arms and stuffs. Due to this one month fasting, i have to guide my stomach to control craving for foods. Stop it -.-
For this month, i am hoping that i could change everything. From bottom to top. To be better. Much better. Getting myself near to Allah and get rid of my last sins are also an advantage to be a better person and start a new life. Prove me right, this month is the time. The time for you to change, the time for you to stop all the shit things while the creatures that we called 'syaitan' are being held with chain. And now i am losing my vocabs book and craving for words and ideas, i think it's better for me to stop here.

Notes : For those who think they can't fast or don't want to fast or fast because of force, and just for stupid things, better don't. You are wasting your time, your energy. But don't drag peoples around you to go to hell with you ;)

And lastly, Happy Fasting Month :)

i wish..

As time passing by, I am getting older and older. Things are getting harder, problems are getting bigger, friends come and go. Sometimes im just being stutter looking at all things that are happening around right now. And sometimes i feel i can't stand this anymore and i wish that i was born in the other part of this world. I can't even do anything except for just praying that things might change to be in better way, to be in good terms.
How i wish things might be better,
I wish that i could change these days,
to be a better days
throw all the tears and hurts away
I wish i could look in the future
so that i could plan better things
I wish that i could stand still
even in the hardest part
and be a strong person
without hanker for people's help
I wish i have someone for me to rely on
so that he/she would be the one who is lending their shoulder for me to cry on
and would do the same thing even in the other moments
This journey is still far
as im still the only daughter in my family, the only child
i don't know whether i could still stand facing all these sort of things in life
when my parents are no longer beside me
Sometimes i feel that i wanted to go first
and sometimes i think i can't
It's hard for me
I wish that all my dreams will come true,
even there are zillion prayers that i pray
as i keep on praying day by day
But,
if one day i am really in a big bad moments, i wish that there is someone that could still sit beside me and say, things will change to be in better ways :)

feelings

Have you been thru part that people or someone you trust or even your bestfriends did things that might hurt your feelings? and for sure you guys did. and how does it feels? i bet it doesn't feels good at all. and sometimes im just hoping that i could turn 'em down or just shoot 'em up. or maybe sometimes i would just wanted to be deaf so that i wouldn't be able to hear all those nonsense. but for sure i don't want to be deaf. sometimes things might not be the same. things that we never expected to hear/do would unfortunately happens. people talk what they want eventhough they didn't know the truth. they don't even want to try and figure out the true things and keep on talking shits. i don't mind if some of 'em want to talk this and that about someone. maybe there's thing that they don't like. but could you please talk to that someone nicely. is it so hard? some words might hurt people's feelings. not to you, but maybe to them. try to understand people's feelings. try to get to know them deeper. don't just follow what your heart said. don't be selfish you fool!

*and to those that being this type of unable to understand human, try to change babee. it's good for you. and please please please don't be selfish. it is immensely annoying -___- pfft

btw thanks for reading ;)

CAMP ROCK

Well, sorry for the late update. I just came back from camp and facing thru exam -____- plus, Im waiting for the pictures to upload by puri. It tooks quite lotsa time because there are too many pictures.

So, here how it goes. On the 3rd to 5th July i went to unit beruniform camp in school. It was the first time i went to camp since i entered secondary school. How lame -___-' pfft. Well, the camp was immensely da boom! Arghhh i missed it already :( and i don't want to talk much, here are some photos,

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First day, 3rd July

Model wannabe part 1 HAHA

Model wannabe part 2

Model wannabe part 3

Model wannabe part 4

Model wannabe part 5

Model wannabe part 6

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Second day, 4th July

Model wannabe part 7 haha


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Last day, 5th July

Model wannabe part 8

Model wannabe part 9

I miss this :(

So, this camp was immensely awesome! It is not that i never been to camp before but due to long-time-never-go camp, i really really missed it. There're lotsa memories left which i never forget. And not forgetting, thanks to maula, our driver to petronas on 1.30 a.m. something haha. Thanks to kak shikin, kak myra, kak anis, luqman, mangga, feeqo, puri, sheikh, pejal and others too for being such a great gang ;)





Haih, i really really really gonna miss this camp :(

Friends letter

Old/best/new friends,


I just want to seek for your forgiveness for all my wrong-doings, my bad behaviour, my shit words and bla3. I know sometimes i did things that might hurt you guys. I am sorry..


Dear old friends,

I just want to say I am missing you guys so much. I don't know how to prove it after all some of you guys are lost in contact. I am trying how to find you guys back. I miss the all of you. I am hoping that one day we will meet each other back. But it's okay, walau jauh di mata, dekat di hati ecehh :D

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Dear best friends,

I am writing this to letting you guys know how much i love being with you guys. You guys are just special in your own way. Thanks for your kindness, thanks for being such a special to me, thanks for everything. The moment that we shared together, problems that we faced together, things that we did together, i don't know how to repay back all your kindness. I am so appreciate it eventhough sometimes i seems don't care at all. I am hoping that our friendships will last forever and ever. Sometimes i try to live without you guys and i can't, im weak. I don't know what would it be if you guys are not here by my side. Thanks for every single thing. Thanks for lending me a hand when im fall, thanks for lending me your shoulder for me to cry on, thanks for giving me supports when i feel bad, thanks for everything again. I love you guys so much :)

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Dear new friends,

I am happy to know you guys and like usual, i am hoping that our friendship will getting closer and be more good. And if you guys are still want to continue this relationship, go on. We can make it i guess. Whatever it is, thanks for being my friend :)


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*Psst, to those who is saying that im sombong or wtv shit it is, i am sorry. i am not that type. maybe sometimes i would be. but not all the time. maybe all the time, only to some of the people. not all. and to those that said i am no longer being their friends, not like before wtv thingy, i am sorry again. and i am trying to be the old me. i am trying to hold our relationships together. but i am sorry if i give a damn fuck like what you did to me like shit things (you know what i mean) so, that's all, thanks :)



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Currently

When boredom strikes, i just hoping that things would be better than before, there is a new thing to try, something exciting. Even alone, but i don't care. Just hoping that i could feel the excitement. I don't hanker to have someone that would cheer me up, I don't hanker having friends which is total fake, I don't hanker to have someone to bring the excitement. If there is one, i would be happy. Too much fake friends nowadays. They are taking advantages on chances given. They are just being selfish. I don't say ALL. I think it's time for me to live on my own not keep relying on someone's life. I just want someone that is true. True in every ways. I admit that nowadays i ignore ppl much. Especially if they are being super duper boring ppl. Ask stupid questions, same stupid questions, again and againnnnnnn -_____- pfft. I'm sorry to say this, but it's my blog, it's my site, and it's my feelings.

Thanks for reading

just a cat?!

Haha okay well, this morning like usual, i was walking to the tapak perhimpunan with julie and all. I was wondering where is this nabila? Well, no doubt she always late. No doubt again, because she's walking from house to school. To me it is quite farrr because of my laziness -_____- She always said that "aku nk kurus!" and even my 'project' also is not working. I mean, she's the one who didn't want to follow the schedule heh and what else to say, go walk! Go nabila go! haha

So, around 7.30 i think cause i don't rmember what's the time. *mcm lah tgk jam haha
So, i was waiting for this nabila to come. And while waiting and searching for her, my eyes were catch with this boy which is her crush *woot woot haha and i said, "nabila, you'll be proud knowing this later" haha cause he didn't came to school for about a week -___- and i believed, this nabila missed him sooo sooo sooo mucho mucho gituu :D and off, this nabila finally arrived. And i said,

Me : Nabila, asal tudung kau kotor hah?

Nabila : Yeke? Laa apahal doh? Tipu ah

Me : Lantak kau ah sumpah kotor. Tak caye tnya ah a'an ika sume.

A'an : A'ah la nabila, kotor. Kan ika?

Ika : A'ah.

Nabila was so panic at that time...

Nabila : Weh Ailin jom teman aku g tndas.

Me : Yelahh nabila

Nabila as usual, babble all herself all along the pathway to the toilet. Then, we put our bags and the KH stuffs wtv thingy and off to the toilet.

Nabila : Weh mana ada kotor

Me : Ada ah kau ni bukak ah tudung tu pastu tgk apa masalahnye?

And nabila take off her tudung and take a look at it

Nabila : Ha'ah doh lin. Apahal ha? Tkkn iron aku yg kotor kot..

Me : Mana lah aku tau. Kau ni suke je kotor sana kotor sini


As time passing by and the assembly is just going to start, Nabila was washing her tudung and suddenly, i felt that something beside me whereas there is no one inside the toilet except for me and nabila. Suddenly that thing jumped into the sink and i scream like the whole school could hear. Nabila which didn't see that thing at all was just scream also and we ran to the other part in the toilet. And there's a prefect, boy prefect was just looking in the toilet which is the screams came from. I was immensely shocked like hell -___- pfft. And while we were laughing at each other, suddenly that thing jumped onto floor and ran out. Nabila was shocked again and she scream for the second time. I was awaked by her voice screaming while im relaxing myself cause by that thing. And nabila said, it looks like kaki toyol wtv shit budak tu merapu. That time i feel like, "im gonna die this time -___-" but this nabila could just even laughed at me pfft -_____-

Nabila : Weh apahal doh kau jerit? Kau nmpak ape?

Me : Kucing doh

Nabila : Ahahahaha lawak doh kau. Kucing pun kau nk jerit

Me : Kepala hot kau lah tak jerit. Dh la tkde org dlm tndas ni, kita je. Aku tgh tgk kau basuh tdung pastu tetibe aku rasa ada bnde kt sebelah. Atas sinki pulak tu, mana aku tk jerit. Kau pn jerit gak en

Nabila : Ahahaha ye ah aku terkejut gila ah asal kau tetibe jerit. Aku jerit je ah. Kau jerit dh ah mcm org terkejut gila

Me : Memang ah doh. Aku tk expect pn ada kucing. Haih nauzubillah

Nabila : Ahahaha nasib baik tk keluar doh. dgn aku tk pakai tudung ahahaha

Me : Ahahaha dah la ada abg pengawas tgk dlm tndas ni tadi ahaha kelakar je doh

Nabila : Ahahahahaha kau ah! Pegi jerit, terkejut aku kau tau

Me : Ahaha sorry ah doh. Mana tk terkejut, kucing tu sebelah aku. Kau tak rasa cmne. Kuat ke aku jerit?

Nabila : Kuat doh ahahaha ailinn ailinn...

Makcik kedai buku : Eh kenapa jerit jerit ni?

Me : Tkde, tadi ada kucing lompat

Makcik kedai buku : Apalah kamu ni, kucing pn takut


And off, me and nabilla were just laughing at each other remembering the moment ahahaha bodoh punye kucing! -_____-

So, that's all for now, end ;)