Cute one

Oh you you you on top, im missing you much, very much :( They're at my opah's in Perak, so I can only play with them when I go back to my hometown. Damnn have to wait for another way to my opah's. I am missing the way they open their mouth and start making some noise craving for foods. And I have to slowly open its mouth and give them some food which is bananas and some bird thingy food whatever -,- Yeah, talking about names, I can't even remember what are these birds called. I think my cousin know, cause he used to birds since he was a juvenile. And I only touch these creatures NOW, my God, I'm quite afraid of birds. Especially the big ones -___- and after I met them, I was like, AWW how cute! Hihi :D Well, that's all for now. My tummy already making sounds here and there and this shows that im hungry, wayyyy hungryy! Err no, should I say starving? -.- nahh anything. Okay then, have a nice eve people :)

Missing

Yeah, im missing those days when I spent most of my time typing in here and post it mostly everydayy. And sorry for the-long-time no post, i've been busy and lazy much to sign in my blog account. Sorry followers :) But I think my blog is kinda boring already due to not-always-post anymore, yeah right. Well, I would be please to continue writing and do think of sign up on tumblr. Don't know yet, we'll see how it goes aight ;) For now, I am out of words because I'm quite tired. I didn't go back to bed after sahur and after finished subuh prayer. Oh yeah, before I forgot, we're in Ramadhan month already and I like it :) So, I am here seeking for your forgiveness from head to toe if i've done something wrong towards you guys, and I mean it :) I hope this Ramadhan will be better than last year and enjoy it much! Til then..

*SELAMAT BERPUASA TO ALL MUSLIMS :)

Hard to let go

Already past few weeks, i am immensely missing the old sweet memories with all the netballers, the training session everyday starting from 4-7pm. there's no more shouting & throwing the balls around, play in the mud, while raining, it is just currently the best memories in this year! having new team mates, quite lots to understand, their mood, their characteristics. good to know them more, have to know them well, good to have them around. especially the under15's haha. they're just so cute! how i miss them so much :(

I am missing the part where everybody was struggling and play very hard to win the game. we didn't have a chance to win & be in the first place. but nevermind, we have done the best & at least we have the chance to be the winner among the groups. congratulations! *clap hands* :D haha. 14th April is the day, the day to let everything out, the day to show our teamwork. all this while we're just having match among us, but on that day we have to face the real game. it was quite frightening -.- whatever it is, already past. and i enjoy it ;)


Last but not least, thank you for everything, Coach, Seniors, Team mates, Juniors, School Team, thank you for everything. not forgotten, Auntie Zaharah ;) thank you for all of your kindness, jersey, clothes & every single thing! I love you NETBALLERS<33 :)

people

here's a thing, i don't understand why some people never end-up making stories about people which is not true. it is nice? NO, it isn't. no matter about the hot-hot-thing, sexy-sexy-thing or whatever, it is still not interesting. i don't know why some of 'em are making up stories about people, especially bout things which do not/even exist. some of 'em are judging people but they don't even realize that they were also in the same position/situation like the people that they are throwing judgments everydayy. plus, people used to talk nonsense about things which they do not know about the truth. rubbish -.-
they simply say, they simply judge. come on, don't be a rubbish maker. these people are just a mess! things you judge people, that judgment is also for you. sometimes you don't realize what you said is what you deserves to. isn't it? so don't be proud of yourself by throwing judgments to other people just for the sake of your satisfies. it is not interesting, ty :)

mood

as you know, currently i am busy with lotsa homeworks, so do training and extra classes. it is tiring somehow. but what do i do, that's life. & yes, my mood swings lately, sometimes i do get angry, i do cry, i do missing someone, i don't have moods. sorry for that. and sometimes i can't even laugh & yes faking a smile haha sorry :D i didn't mean to, but i am really tired. & yes, problems are everywhere. it makes me being sombong sometimes. dengan muka tak pernah nak senyum, gelak dgn certain orang je. really sorry guys. i try to be normal back & fix all things up back to normal so i'll have a good condition of life in these upcoming days & new stuffs. agak berat jugak, but well i am growing, need to learn more new things, facing problems by my own. hope everything will going fine after this ;)

school

so far it was fine, but busy with homeworks (for sure) anddd, training stuffs. so do meet new classmates of twenty-ten. so far they were okay. but i am missing my ex-classmates of two-oh-oh-nineeeee! not in the same class anymore, no sounds of their laughters, their jokes, but somehow, thank God we are still in the same school. but probably amalina's recess time is not the same like ours. pity her. besides, there are still friends that i am not that close like i used to with them like before. maybe they're busy.

anddd, yes, one by one leave, making a move. ada yang pindah whatsoever. miss them loads :( taktau bila lagi dapat jumpa, lepak sama, share everything lagi kan. but we'll see, kalau ada rezeki ada lah kan? i think that's all for now. i'll write again soon, thank you for reading ;)



*by the way, i am currently busy so a bit late posting blog. so, sorry :D

Goodbye 2009, hello 2010

it is already 2010? oh myyyyy -.- i still can't face the fact yet & i still can't let 2009 go. but there are things that happened in 2009 that i really really want to throw it away. well, shit happened -__-'

*skip*

*skip*

started with handball, camps & all.

handball - the time where i met Kak Shikin, right? hm i am missing those things too much! :(

camps - our relationships getting stronger & stronger, plus the time where we met more & more seniors. i am missing this moment very much too :(


whatever it is, 2009 is over, here comes 2010. hoping that this year would bring lotsa happiness & joyful moments. but, all the memories in 2009 will never be replaced or forgotten. fullstop!

BBQ at shikinTJ's

It was on the 31st of December 2009, papa dropped me, lina & mok infront of Melati & we walked towards Kak Shikin's house. & yes Mangga was over there. eating alone while waiting for Kak Shikin to finished bathing.

*Skip crap things*


& around 8.30 something plenty of peoples came & joined the BBQ. Pejal, Tasha, Puri, Ony, Haziqah, Don, Kak Azmira, Sheikh, Feeqo, Shameer, Dayat, Luqman, AxrnTorres & bla bla & so do form2 kids. we gathered together for the last time before Kak Shikin is leaving. haih :( it sucks. no matter how, we do still have to keep in touch. I LOVE YOU, I REALLY REALLY DO. THANKS FOR EVERY SINGLE THING, KAKAK.

-Ailin, adik :(

lain

i am really missing the good old days with you. tapi semuanya dah berubah. semua orang berubah. contact memang contact tapi macam taknak je. caring memang caring tapi macam tak ikhlas. ada yang macam tak pernah kenal. ada yang dah lost contact. ada yang lupa member. ada member baru lupa yang lama. macam tak pernah berkawan -.- hm entah lah

cerita

ya, kali ini dalam bahasa melayu. jangan banyak tanya, baca sahaja, akan faham nanti.


memang aku tidak tahu banyak pasal kau dan aku hanya akan bercakap apa yang aku tahu mengenai 'kita'. aku tahu aku banyak sakitkan hati kau, terlalu banyak salah aku pada kau dan aku minta maaf. bukan aku tidak mahu menemani kau di saat kau amat memerlukan aku untuk bersama dengan kau tetapi aku tidak boleh. aku bukanlah seperti kawan perempuan kau yang lain yang bebas untuk keluar setiap masa, aku minta maaf.

hari itu, aku tidak datang cari kau adalah kerana kau telah membuang aku dari hidup kau dan pergi membiarkan aku dan terus pergi tanpa meninggalkan sebarang berita. aku sakit, kau tak pernah tahu. selama kau pergi, terlalu banyak perkara yang aku terpaksa tempuhi seorang diri walau pada saat itu aku amat memerlukan kau. aku tidak akan menghubungi atau menghantar sebarang pesan pada kau pada masa itu kerana aku tahu kau tidak akan pernah ambil kisah dan aku hanya akan merosakkan kebahagiaan kau. jadi aku biarkan kau bahagia dan terus bahagia. dan sejak daripada itu, aku sedar yang aku tidak boleh mengharapkan sesiapa lagi untuk terus berdiri kalau tidak hanya diri sendiri. setelah sekian lama kau menghilang, aku makin sakit. tetapi aku tahu aku harus lebih tabah dan kawan-kawan setia menemani dan memberi semangat kepada aku. ya, aku makin tabah sehingga kini tanpa kau disisi. setelah berkali-kali jatuh bersama yang dahulu. aku rasa kau tahu. walau kau kembali, walau kau bukan yang dahulu, aku mengerti. maafkan aku kerana menyakiti kau selama kau berada bersama aku dahulu.

ikhlas,
ailin